Lixy,

I am so sorry that your time with Rocky is at an end. You are so lucky to have had seventeen years together.....

Rest in Peace (((Rocky))) ole boy, and be peaceful at rest (((Lixy))) knowing you did the right thing for him.

((((((((Lixy)))))))))

My thoughts are with you.

(((((EVERYONE)))))

For Lilith especially...The doc told me a year and a half ago that he'd "shut down". His kidneys were only "fighting" because of all the water he was obsessed with. I knew it would happen...I just never knew exactly what would happen. TY for making that clear. It's truely a relief to know why his legs ceased to work so suddenly (seemingly overnight).

Mr. Lixy got home around 3:35pm and we sat with Rocky for a while. Mr. Lixy had to go in and out of the house periodically and Rocky, who was on his blankie in the kitchen still, would raise his head and try to get up and go out with "daddy". I picked him up and took him outside one last time, to see the birds under the trellis and the sunset and daddy doing his thing in the yard. It was raining and Rocky hates rain on his face, but he looked and looked and then turned his head to me...so I knew he was done looking! I took him inside again, wiped his face of all the rain drops and laid him back on his blankie till it was time to go.

Our drive to the vets was the most peaceful drive we've ever taken to the vets...except for the cramp in my foot. Pay no mind to that...I flipped my shoe off and on we rode. The vet took Rocky into "the back room" and inserted an intravenous line. When Rocky came back he was weak, but not nervous. I felt his chest to see if his heart was beating faster than a freight train. It wasn't. The vet gave us some time to talk to him and then he returned.

The rest is pretty obvious...but just know...I picked his head up, looked him in the eye so deeply and made sure he saw my eyes and told him I love him soooooooooooooooooooooooo much. And then he was gone.

Rocky passed away at 5:35pm EST on December 29th 2005

We brought him home and will bury him tomorrow morning in a small family ceremony on the land that he so loved to roam!

My gratitude and thanks go out to all who have helped me through this time of sorrow! I cannot tell you how grateful I am for everyone here!!!!!!!

((((Lixy)))) RIP Mr. Rocky cat, you were very well loved.

omg i'm soooooooo teared up right now...........

how sad......

hugs to you all.

I sat here, just bawling my eyes out, greiving with you. his pain is gone and he died surrounded with love. he's in my heart and i never met him.

much love to you and Mr. Lixy

He was holding on until he knew you were ready for him to go - that was his gift to you both.

(((((((Lixy)))))))) (((((((((Mr. Lixy)))))))))

Awww Lixy hun......sorry ya had to go through all that....but rest assured Rocky KNEW you loved him and will continue to do so

(Lixy) :tears: <--- reaching again not-so smilie

May you always have the love in your life that Rocky had and may you too someday pass surrounded by the caring and comfort he felt.

IF...

I could...I would hug every single one of you for sending such loving messages!

I am speechless and humbled!

I love you for feeling my pain with me!

Sweetie...I am soooo sorry.

((((Lixy))))

(((Lixy))) I'm terribly sorry.

RIP Rocky...

I feel your pain so much. When i lost my first cat to a car accident i wasnt even at home. I was away for a week on a training course and when i heard what had happened i just sat in my hotel room and bawled, then when i got home i bawled again.

Lixxy my thoughts are with you two during this hard time. I will be saying a prayer for you guys tonight.

All i can offer is a hug to you guys.

((((((((((((Lixy))))))))))))

Words are failing me right now.....just know that you're loved and that we feel your pain.

Lou and Fussy
xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

The little fella chose his time, sweetie ~ waiting for Mr Lix to come home, rain on his face..... yup, he knew - they almost always do.

He's at peace now.... be happy for him, and remember him as the tough wee SOB you loved.

(((Lixy)))

Lixy,

Hugs to you and hubby and deepest sympathy at your loss. Seventeen years is a remarkable life and it was truly a blessing you got to have him so long. You know you're always in our thoughts and prayers.

DB

Thank you for the special thoughts and prayers everyone!

Mr. Lixy and I have quite a family in you!

Rocky left this world free of pain, & being held by one who loved him enough to let him go...which is the best any creature on this planet can hope for at the end... RIP

Can't add much to what's already been said... and Scotz really summed it up well.

((((((Lixy))))))) I know how much he meant to you.

I also know how it feels to wonder if you're crying wolf. Last winter, some of my Pixie friends dealt with me crying & wondering if the time had come to put Solon down but he bounced back.

I've loved hearing the warmth in your words when you wrote about that vocal old kitty.

RIP Rocky

Oh Lixy, I am so very sorry for your loss. I know how it feels...we had to put down our beloved cat earlier this year. It was brutually tough for us...still is....but the pain has eased some with the presence of a new little kitten in our home. He'll never be able to replace what we lost but, as a unique individual, has a joy all his own.

God Bless...

(((Lixy)))

It's been a topsy turvy day peeps! I had to awaken and not get breakfast for Rocky for the first time in 17 some years! I had no direction, beings I am off from work and had all this free time.

I kept seeing him from the corner of my eye all day. They were some bitter/sweet moments! I imagine I will see him for quite some time. He's really everywhere in this house. There's no room I enter that I don't have a rush of memories. The kitchen and the cellar are the hardest to enter without a heavy sigh and partial breakdown.

Mr. Lixy got home early today and I was so relieved to have his soul fill up the house. It was quite empty in spirit all day till he got home! There's nothing worse than a really old house lacking spirit!

We live on a plot that is rock ridden. We had to dig a hole big enough for Rocky's "coffin". We started digging, and an hour or so later we cleared enough soil and rock to bury my baby. To push the dirt over his coffin was kinda hard to do, yet cathartic all in the same time!

No doubt about it...I am a mess right now! But I know I did the right thing at the right time and I'll get beyond this heavy blanket feeling in time!

The easiest part of all of this is that I have my Pixie family to listen and realize and consider my pain. Don't know how I'd have done this without you all!

*hugs to everyone*

(((lixy)))

Fuck. Didn't get the chance to check this thread until now.

Went into work today, and shortly after I got there, one of the other people brought in a racoon that she picked up on her way into work. Horribly crushed by a passing vehicle. She knew she was picking it up only to bring it in to be euthanized. No way we could have done anything else for the animal. Entire staff was clustered around the exam table.

co-miserate much?

RIP Rocky.

A little better this morning, but still a lost feeling that Rocky wasn't demanding breakfast or pushing the bathroom door open to stare at me on the throne.

I had my bathrobe strewn across the foot of my side of the bed last night. When I got under the covers it felt like Rocky was lying down there (as he usually did) and I fully expected to feel him get up to circle me like I am the wagon train and he is the indians. He did that most every night. I was so exhausted but couldn't close my eyes. I couldn't see anything but a glimmer of light outside from our X-mas lighting. All I could feel was the weight at my feet and it must have been soothing enough to put me to sleep eventually. I slept till 10am. It wasn't a deep sleep because I remember seeing the clock at 1:30, 3:46, 7:01 and then again at 10. I fought to get up because I knew what I had to contend with when I came downstairs.That Mr. Lixy was here this morning was better than yesterday morning, when I was alone.

Mr. Lixy is a rock. He's sad, but very understanding and comforting of me in my state. He handles death differently than I do. I've seen that when his Pop and his uncle passed away. He's more relieved for the deceased, than selfish in his own feelings of loss. I wish I could be more like him in that respect. It seems to hurt less.

I know the stages of mourning and I'm handling them as best as I can. Writing all this down is helping. Keeping it all in is just not my style. Thanks for reading, sharing and caring!

(((((EVERYONE)))))

((Lixy))

;)

Even when it gets easier, the loss will strike you at odd moments. And it's OK...It's Rocky's way of coming to visit you and comfort you.


(((((Lixy)))))

(((((((((Lixy))))))))))

:( I fear that emptiness, too. How am I going to get used to not having to walk the big beast all the time? *sob*

I'm glad Mr. Lix is home & it's awesome that Rocky could be buried on your land. ((((((Lixxxxxxx)))))))

((( Lixy )))

Ya just need some!

it's time




((( Lixy )))







that is all

You guys are so good to me! TY for caring!

I pulled out Rocky's photo album yesterday and a flood of happy memories came to us. He was such a beautiful and fiesty kitten and then a full grown cat. His coat was magnificent. Until a little over two years ago he'd groomed himself to perfection. When he stopped cleaning himself one day I asked the vet about it and she said it's similar to elderly people. Sometimes it happens with cats too. I brushed him as best I could, but who ever heard of a cat who hates to be brushed?

Anyway, it was fun to see him in the pictures as he grew up. It was good to smile about him for a while.

Someone ask us if we were getting another pet right away and simultaneously, without having discussed it, Mr. Lixy and I both gave a resounding NO! Obviously we have to mend ourselves before considering sharing our hearts again.

TY for the hugs and love all!

(((((EVERYONE)))))

again my heart goes out to you lixxy. I can feel your pain and loss.

huggles to you both for your loss.

I cant find words to say to you because yet again they have all been said.

love and healing vibes to you and Mr. Lixy, i am still keeping you in my thoughts during this time of healing. (((((Lixy & Mr. Lixy)))))

: ( Y ) ' : <--- pat on the butt smilie

Definately the right track for ya now...while it might be tempting to fill that gaping hole in your hearts right away, there can be no replacement, & your next pet will have a personality all its own...& would suffer by being caompared to the late great Rocky

Oh Peeps! Each day, as I heal and hurt less, I come here and find the perfect replies to help my smile get bigger and bigger!

*smacks PF's hand from my butt...AGAIN!*

Ahem...

Of all the people I know...I am proclaiming my Pixie family as the most understanding, loving, caring and futuristically hopeful people on this planet! Aside from my baby sis, NO ONE in my personal life has been so helpful in my recovery/mourning!!!! Not even friends who have lost pets (mostly dog owners). I can't explain why, but I've realized some people don't want to hear of "your" loss. They only want you to be "as you used to be". I've actually had a person or two (more...if truth be known) tell me that "It isn't like a person died...stop being so sad about a CAT...just a CAT!". "Oh, com'on...you can always get another cat...it isn't like your mom died". To which I proclaimed, "It's the saddest I've felt SINCE my mom died...dickhead!"

Sis knew Rocky and she has a cat of her own, so baby sis is my immediate/intimate grounding rod. That anyone here has never met Rocky, but can feel my pain through my relating stories of my "Monkey" or "Butchie" or "Poopy" or "King Tut" (amoung all the other names we called him through the years)...speaks VOLUMES of how close our Pixie family really is!

(((((EVERYONE)))))

And so it goes.............................................

LixyChick,

I'm glad to learn that you hurt less. I hope you continue to heal rapidly. You are right though, some people just don't get it. Hard to understand sometimes...

We love ya', Lixy. Anytime you need somebody goofy to chat with, I'm usually around somewhere. (((( HUGS ))))

I'm sorry I haven't gotten here till tonight, sweetie. I know the pain you're going through, having had to put down one dog, one cat and losing a cat in a fire. Hopefully this beautiful poem will help you just a little.



Rainbow Bridge

Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.

When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge.
There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together.
There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.

All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor; those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by.
The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.

They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent; His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.

You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.

Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together....

Author unknown...

Taking all those ((((((hugs)))))) and loving words and holding on!

Geezzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...I love you guys!