Absolutely!

Periods don't bother me at all. :D

Well, I decided to jump on the scale again this morning. It's been since the 25th and I was sort of curious to see what's going on. I've felt absolutely incredible for the last few days which is such a surprise given how badly I felt about a week ago. (A couple of the Pixies I know were VERY concerned about me. Thank you ladies, you're the greatest. :x: I appreciate you so much I can't fully explain.)

Anyway, I've been working like a madman trying to keep progressing. I've been doing all I can to eat well (slipped up with a banana split for dinner one night) and been trying to keep my workouts to where I'm just under the complete exhaustion phase.

Looks like I did make a little progress. According to my scale, I've dropped another percent in my body fat % and I'm also up 3.5 lbs. from the other day. I know it probably sounds so stupid for me to complain about my weight but really, it is such a huge problem for me. Since I was an infant I've had to take enzymes to help my body digest food and absorb the nutrients and they basically just do enough to keep me skinny. Very skinny. I can hardly stand to see myself naked, to me I look like a freaking skeleton.

Oh well, sorry to go on that little tangent. Things are seemingly going well right now but I do know that with this cystic fibrosis they can change in an instant. I'm gonna win though. I'm gonna win in a blowout. ;)

But...... to my "personal trainer" go ahead and whip me like a rented mule if you've got to. Push me to my limits and I'll thank you when I see you. ;)

I went to the gym again today, although I only did a moderate workout. 30 minutes on the elliptical, 200 situps, stretches, and three leg weights exercises.

I haven't lost any weight in the pst 2 weeks. :( But I am maintaining - which, given the recent parties and my stint in the Hut - might be a success in and of itself.

I have manic days...some days I barely eat 1200 calories, and other days I am at 2500 calories. Today is a "starving myself" day, because I was bad on the weekend. I hate this.

I sure wish I had someone to whip me, too. I'm starting to feel frustrated because I'm making so little progress and I'm working so hard. :(

Eh, the scale was not as kind as I wished for today, but what can I expect when I have a run in with the peanut butter. I did 20 minutes on the elliptical today, followed by 20 minutes of arm weights, and a series of ab work. Cardio just isn't my thing - I don't enjoy it and I get bored easily. I'm trying to at least do 20 minutes each day and add the weights in.

I'm frustrated with my progress but I'm really trying to keep plugging along without getting completely derailed - again.

Today one of the guys I study with came swimming with the girls and I. This guy has been swimming for a while and can do serious distance, so it really encouraged me to keep up! The girls usually swim in the slow lane and leave earlier than me, but this guy swam in my lane (the medium speed one) and I can be very competitive which is a good thing in this case, because I pushed myself to do 10 more laps than usual. It wasn't any harder, and I know I can do more distance if I force myself. If I hadn't needed to leave for a class, I think I might have done a few more.

January 30 : 1.25 km

Today I was tired but I went swimming with the girls anyway, and I ended up being really glad I went.

February 1 : 1 km

I worked out today...first day since Monday. 26 minutes on the elliptical, 200 situps, stretches.

Good thing...given how bad I was at my dinner party. I need to learn how to be good and be social.

I went to the gym this morning ... 15 minutes on the elliptical, upper body weights - back, shoulder, arms, chest and some crunches. I think I've found *my* gym time. I go first thing in the morning. I don't particularly enjoy showering and getting ready at the gym every day but it works for me. It's done, out of the way, and I don't spend all day making excuses to get out of it.

Eating will always be a challenge for me. I'm trying to control the sweet thing. I don't know how I will ever get it under control or be able to handle sweet/chocolate in moderation. But one day at a time and I'm just glad when each day comes to an end and I can say, I did pretty well.

Lilith, how is the book you purchased - YOU on a Diet?

I can't do moderation so I decided to do none. No candy no chocolate. I am basically trying not to eat white flour or white sugar.

You on a diet has a lot of good body info.

February 6 : 1.25 km

Today another girl friend joined our swimming group. She is also a weaker swimmer than me, so I was without friends in my lane again. There always seemed to be a guy going slow in my lane though, and as annoying as that is - I think it's good because it pisses me off and gets me working harder.

My arms are starting to tone up a bit, and I love it.

i'd like to start lifting weights myself, if my damn wrist would ever heal up, hoping to get my ass in shape, maybe starting running and stuff

MM is there some sort of wrist brace you could wear?

Sorry...didn't mean to freak you out. Maybe if I wasn't wearing my x-ray swim goggles. :D


You all are doing so well! This is really cool to watch.

But then wouldn't you be going faster to keep up with the fast girls? ;):D

My rudder slows me down. :p

i had a brace right after i broke it,

i wore it until it hurt to much from wearing it.


now it pretty much hurts all day everyday.

I've only worked out once this week, although I've been OK at controlling my food intake. I plan to work out on Thursday and Friday to make up for my indescretions. :)

Lilith - good for you on the whites ... will that help your diabetes? I think that would be a challenge for me. While I rarely use flour or sugar, I'm sure a fair number of the foods I eat contain them.

I think I might pick up the You on a diet book. I leafed through it quickly one day at Target and it looked interesting.

I really realized today that if I don't write down what I eat/drink in a very quick fashion I really do forget. I think this might have been some of my problem with trying to journal in the evening for the whole day. It also helps me resist the little minatures that one of my co-workers has on her desk because I don't want to have to write those darn things down. I always thought I'd dislike a written food journal, but I'm on day three and finding it works pretty well for me. I stumbled today with my water becuase I was in and out of meetings all day and I really couldn't remember how many refills I had. I guess if the worst i do is not journal enough water, I'm not doing so bad.

I saw today that they approved Orlistat/ Xenical as an OTC diet aid. Is the very least favorite thing I ever tried.

I had an eye opening experience today as it relates to my weight, self image, and lack of self confidence. I think I've finally found a point that if wasn't the starting point of my downward spiral at least has been a pivotal point. It's a weird sense of power that I feel now recognizing it. Now I need to move beyond it - overcome it.

Finally, I feel like I know what the demon is that I'm fighting.

((((maddy)))) you can do it, too.

There's a highly praised vegetarian restaurant in Middletown, CT called It's Only Natural. All of their meals are without meat (duh), but also do not have white flour, processed sugars & any preservatives. They use organic vegetables and they don't even have real coffee! Imagine my reaction to decaf with raw sugar & soy milk! :D

Here's a link to their recipe page.

Go (((maddy)))!!!!!

Yesterday the pool wasn't very busy at all! It was fun since because one of the slow lanes was empty apart from my friends, so I went into that lane too with them! I am teaching them technique so it was great, I was able to get my laps in and still observe them at the same time!

February 8 : 1.25 km

((((maddy))))) damn beast is goin' down. Just sayin. :D

Oh, if only that were your nickname for me. :faint:

As for my little trek towards fitness or health (whichever comes first), I had a rough first part of the week and ended up dropping five pounds. :(

Still keeping up the workouts though so hopefully the weight loss means I'm losing some fat.

Well i have been missing for a wee bit, and i did put on some weight. I am now ready to take up the reins and head forward on my trek yet again

Weigh in today, i lost 1.4kg

That makes 9.6kg/21.2lb lost so far
12cm off waist

thanks everyone :)

I can't believe how incredibly good this week has been. I have definitely found my "give-a-damn" and now I just need to keep hold of it. I do believe water makes a huge difference for me. For the past week I've been drink 100 - 140 oz of water per day.

As I already knew, planning is essential for my success. And amazingly, I'm slowly finding the courage to try new foods and expand my palate.

I made it to the gym all 5 of the work days again this past week, and I'm sore.

That is awesome Maddy!!! :line::line:

You keep kicking butt!!!

Excellent news maddy!

You've looked great all along, but it's awesome to hear you sounding great too.

Go forth unto this world and conquer it!

ty :) For some reason I'm the odd kid who can really control my diet/exercise best in the winter. I think for most people it's easier to do it in the warm months or at least that's what people around me say.

I can't even explan how good it feels to be in control. I wish I could remember this feeling when I start to spin in the other direction.

I guess we'll just have to be here to remind ya then won't we. ;)

I worked out today :D

YAY! osuche!

I have been going to the gym three times a week since Christmas. If for no other reason it gets me out of the house in the depths of winter. I became such a slug in past winters. I enjoy the energy that I feel after working out. I have noticed that I've toned up since I have started.

Go campingboy!

Yay, campingboy.

Beware, I'm about to brag....

- I've been to the gym every "weekday" for 5 weeks in a row.
- I rocked the scale this week - to the tune of 5.2 lbs this week.

I'm about 8 lbs away from last year's low point, but I'm feeling confident I'll get there soon enough and then it's moving on futher.

Awesome maddy!!! :cheerlead

Tuesday, my girls and I were all busy with other things, so we skipped the pool. Yesterday I think we all noticed how out of shape we had fallen just by skipping one time!!! I forced myself not to fall back in the number of laps though.

February 15 : 1.25 km

I went to the gym for the past 4 days. I even did 20 minutes on the stairmaster, plus time on the elliptical today!

That's great PS and osuche! :nana:

I learned today that my workouts are safer and more productive when I'm not battling a stomach virus (go figure). Decided to try what our football coach had us do back in high school at the end of each of our workouts. He always told us to give 110% so we would each have to see how many times we could bench press 110% of our weight as the last thing before we hit the showers.

Yeah, that was a lot easier when I was 18 yrs old. Luckily I don't weigh a hell of a lot because it probably would've hurt like a SOB when I got to laughing and ended up with the bar on my chest. Was laughing because I realized what a freaking moron I was to even try it. (See, I told you WI that I'm a moron.) No harm, no foul though.

I'm still hanging steady with my weight this week and I can tell I'm toning up in my chest and arms. The legs and butt are still a ways off though. :(