sorry...I try not to say it...not to schmear my misery all over the place but I'm just not able to keep it inside. It's almost been a year and I can't believe I'm still so raw.

((Lilith))

No apologies needed, dear. You are completely understood here.

/me shrugs with ya and then hugs you real tight

I don't visit here often anymore... just doesn't seem the same without him here... he changed me... and his passing changed me in ways I still can't come to terms with... I do miss so many here tho.. you know who you are... and I hope that you realize that all of you tread softly on my mind from time to time... and each of you play a part in pulling me back here...

Love you all...

<----misses the innocence of her childhood...I spent the evening keeping an eye on my daughter as she wandered around at her brother's Little League game, worried that someone might spirit her away, even though we live in a small community where people usually keep an eye on each other's children.

after packing the car the other night i found myself feeling nostalgic for those late-night/asscrack-of-dawn family road trips. i'd get woken up and climb into the car with my teddybear while it was dark out, still dressed in my jammies, all sleepy anticipation for the trip.