RIGHT, ya fucker!
 

Went for my CT Scan this evening, and got called back to see the Consultant.

I have Stage 4 Cancer in the base of my tongue, which has spread to two of the lymph nodes in my neck. He reckons combination Chemo/radio-therapy will kill the worst, with possible surgery as a back-up. Obviously, he won't know ALL there is to know til the CT results are back on Monday, but he doesn't really see much changing between now and then.

A good time to go and buy another BIG motorbike, methinks - might not get another chance!!

Buy it! ((hugs)) You'll have it paid off and ready to ride like hell by the time the chemo/radiation are done. Make cancer your bitch. If anyone can you can.

:withstupi

You didn't get stuck cancer... cancer got stuck with you, and I don't think it understands that it is now fucked.

Kick its ass, DM!

Cheers, guys!!

I guess I can always sic Lil on to it, "if the drugs don;'work........."


aaactuaalleee..........














"LILITH......... c'mere and........erm .............. well, we'll figure that out later!!"


:licker: :molest: :69: ;)

Sorry to hear of your cancer DM, but it seems that you are the sort of person that will beat it before it beats you.

Thanks darlin' - I certainly hope so!!

I know despite all the bravado you must be scared. Let us know if there is anything we can do please.

Scared is a good thing. It's the bugle that calls all the body's troops to the front line of the invader. :gb:

fuckin'A that sucks ass. (((hugs))) sending lots of good thoughts your way, dm

Well, that sucks raw moose cock.

Hey everybody - thanks so much for all your good thoughts!

Lil - I'm NOT scared...... I'm fuckin' terrified!! But I'd be properly fritted if I didn't know what was what, so I count myself lucky in that regard.

I penned a wee thing for another forum I frequent, that some of you might like; here it is.

Initial impressions were not good - several glimpses through the opening and closing door to the scanners' lair revealed a quiescent, yet somehow slightly threatening, huge, beige polo-mint, dominating the room with a quiet menace.

And so to the main event. Sliding onto the hard, leatherette bench, knots in the ties of the back-to-front hospital gown digging in to my back, venflon poking out through the skin of my arm like some kind of high-tech mole, I wait as the machine begins to beep and grunt.

Suddenly the bench moves, jerking slightly as it disappears into the bowels of the machine, carrying me with it - a reluctant passenger tonight. Back it goes, returning to it's original position to allow the very attractive young lady to appear over my head and re-adjust the venflon in my arm before, once again, the machine does it's impersonal work.

Finished now, I get up from the bench, expecting dizziness, swaying.... anything ..... but, nothing. Just an instruction to get dressed, and told to go 10 minutes later.

What an anti-climax!




Results on Monday.

DM you know you have the prayers of my wife and I and you've been added to a prayer tree at our church. If there is anything we can do for you, please let us know! I start chemo on the 24th for my colon cancer and so we're in this fight together ... and, what's more ... we're going to win the fight! ;)

DM never give up you will be in my prayers

So, the purple worm swallowed you whole, but your adventuring party was able to cut your out before you took too much damage?

You're in my thoughts & will be lifted up often as I make the mindful rounds. . . .

Damn straight DB! This'll be the biggest fight I've ever had, no doubt, but you and I, with love and best wishes from our real & cyber friends (and a wee bit of help from somewhere's else) will win out.

Many thanks to all who've written here, or PM'd - too many to thank individually, but you all know who you are.
:cheers: (((HUGS)))

DM

I hope you set right aboot it DM, Give it a right bootin!

I'll certainly do my best Smithy - thanks, man!

Well, an update - saw my surgeon and the cancer specialist this morning. They reckon that Chemotherapy, followed by combination Chemo/Radio therapy is the way to go. This will all be done at the Beatson in Glasgow (Smithy and some others will probably know of it) and the whole thing kicks-off on the 22nd.



I have to have a few preliminary things carried out prior to the actual therapy commencing, including having a mask made (to cover my ugly mug!!), so not sure exactly when the Chemo start-date is - but certainly by the end of the month.

On the positive side; both Doc's seem to think that with a mere smidgin of good fortune, the tumour(s) will be killed off, and in the fullness of time, I'll be back to the awkward, obnoxious gitI am now.

On the negative side; well, it hasn't improved my typing skills one iota! :)

P.S. DB - I hope this mutual-praying gig doesn't cancel itself out!!

DM

It doesn't. Cause there many more prayers being said than you even know about.

BTW- I just signed both of your petitions. You can ask Wyndhy what that means.

Grrrrrr ...... I hate riddles!! :banghead:

asked and answered and if i had any control over the other, i'd fix that too. lots of love and good luck!

Got my treatment schedule through today. I have to get a plastic face-mask made on 8th July, a CT "simulation the day after, then radiotherapy starts on 5th August ~ 5 days a week until the end of September.

Oh joy!!

a little fyi (if you don't want any just tell me to stuff it) the burn didn't get bad for me until the last week (week 5) and the worst pain was AFTER treatment was over, about a week and half later.

are you going to lose your sense of taste?

Will the burns be outside or inside? I recently took this medicine, carafate. It's to help lesions and ulcers to heal. It completely coats things. Can you be given something like that to coat your mouth and throat after treatments?

The info sheets, and the specialist nurse, both say exactly that - the pain is worse after the treatment, as are with the side-effects too! Looking at the schedule, it's 6 1/2 weeks of radiotherapy - haven't got the Chemo schedule yet.



Both, apparently. Again, the info tells me I have to shave all my fcial hair to have the mask made (I've had my moustache since I was 17, so that'll be really weird!!) and to buy an electric shaver tominimise the aggro to my skin.
Happy days - haven't used one of them since....... well, I don't know when!
DM

Haven't been avoiding this thread, just haven't anything to add to it...till now.

Cancer. Kick its hairy little ass.

Abso-fuckin-lutely, Scotz.

Me and DB both.

OMG, OMG, OMG, OMG.....How did I miss this.

You are both in my prayers. If it would help I would hold my breath until you both beat this, but then I believe I would pass out and hopefully my body would start again....so that wont help anyone. So the most I can do is the prayers.

I know that you can beat this. The only advise is live like there is no tommorrow...tell everyone what you think today....and most of all know that you are loved. (by me too).

Is there anything I can do?

Nat :heartbeat

I'm finding threads to do with the Big C still difficult to deal with.....please dont think my absence in here (or any others) means you arent in my thoughts & prayers.

Nat ~ partly my fault I think, for not updating it like I said I would. I will do that in a minute....... btw, prayers are good - thank you!

Fangtasia ~ no worries darlin'; and thanks for the thoughts!

Update
 

So, Wednesday was the day I had to get my mask made. I'd been told, though I can't remember who by, this is made from the same papier mache-type stuff fruit and other items are packaged in, and I would have to shave my moustache off (which I've had now for about 30 years!) So, I did.

Into the Beatson Treatment floor, and chatting to the tech while he explains the procedure, he shows me the material they use - THERMOPLASTIC!

And it doesn't cover your mouth/lips!! Raging is NOT the word!!!! FYI, I have convinced myself it would have fallen out eventually anyway, as most of my hair seems to be doing at the moment, but it's no real consolatiion!

Anyway, this TP comes in the form of a thickish mesh, which is heated to about 70 degrees (Celsius) then (quickly!) moulded over the contours of your face & shoulders as it cools. There are quick-release "poppers" which hold you to the carbon-fibre table, seven sets IIRC, which is actually not as claustrophobic as I thought it was going to be!

Once he'd trimmed it up a bit, he showed me it - it's quite bizarre to see a 3-D rendition of yourself! I had to go back on Thursday to undergo a "CT Simulation", which is where the mask is used to 'strap me down' and determine exactly where the X-ray beam is to be deployed, and where the entry/exit points on my skin will be. That's important in order that I can manage my 'skin regime' right from the word go. (It gets very red and sore during the treatment - like very bad sunburn, outside AND inside!)

The Mask

Wearing this for the ten minutes or so it took for them to do a CT scan was, quite possibly, the most intensely horrible thing I've ever had done to me! I'm a wee bit claustrophobic at the best of times, and lying there, pinned to a carbon-fibre table, eyes shut because of the mask, wasn't my idea of a good time. And I've to do that another 33 times!! Oh Joy! :(

I shall do my best to update this thread properly in future!! ;)

Incidentally, I copied this from another (car!!) Forum I'm a member of, hence the editing x 2!!!

I'm not sure if you can get your hands on it but my sis swore by the emu oil we sent her to treat the burns.

That contraption is so scary for me too. I have issues with anything that makes me feel trapped so they would have to sedate me. You are so brave. btw 33 is my lucky number so I think that is a great sign that you will be blasting that fucker right outta there!

I shall definitely investigate Lil - thanks.

DM

I have not been around of late DM or I would have posted sooner. I KNOW that you'll make it 33 (my lucky number too) more times too. Maybe post a "C" with a circle around it and slash thru it on that big bike you'll be getting! Right across the gas tank so ever time you look down you'll see how many punches you've given!

Many prayers coming your (and DB's) way! Stay strong oh Pixie warrior! :D

re: The Mask - Lil says she couldn't stand to wear it, but something tells me she wouldn't have any problem using it on someone else...in her dungeon...

Pretty much where I was going, Scotzoid...DM383 in Lil's Dungeon. I can so see this hapening. And without a lot of protest on either side.

Starts thinking about what all she can fit into that one opening...

Keep thinking those thoughts, Lil!! :D

I'm back in hospital tomorrow (Friday), early-doors, and although I can get to use the internet, it's in an "internet cafe" type setting so I'm not able able to visit here. I can "talk" with PantyFanatic via Facebook (when he remembers he's got it, that is!!) so if anyone has anything vital to tell me, please do so via PF.

Won't be long - be back home on Wednesday next, with any luck, and looking forward to lots of sexy new pics from our wonderful Pixie ladies.

DM

I'm sending healing, sexy thoughts your way, DM. You will kick this cancer's ass, of that I have no doubt.

Ug.

What a hassle.