I've recently been thinking a lot about being lonely. This is all so new to me, being lonely that is. All my life I've been a total loner and liked it that way. I was honestly happier by myself most times.

But that's not who I am anymore. Whatever caused it, maybe I'll never know, but one day I woke up and I actually felt sad that I was not around more (or any for that matter) people. I would think that emotion would be accuratly termed as 'loneliness.' Since then I've had a lot of experience with this new emotion however, I haven't learned much from that experience.

I've decided that above all else, I am who I am and I can't and won't change that for anyone. The problem is, who I am is a guy who sits at home all day. I've tried meeting people online for months now and it's just not gonna happen, at least not without paying an arm and a leg searching through all the pay personal sites. I'm simply not the clubbing type. A big reason for that is that I can't, don't, and won't dance, that's just all there is to it. In a few months I'll finally turn 21 so I'll be able to go to bars and stuff. But I don't drink. So internet just ain't gonna happen, won't go to clubs because I don't dance, and won't go to bars because I don't drink.

So where the hell does an introverted, non-dancing, non-drinking, and oversexed guy go to meet people?

That's what's on my mind.