the day that i was to return to the States and leaving Mayhem behind in the UK was the most heartwrenching day of my life, second only to letting my son choose to live with his dad. My sternum felt like it was trying to flatten my heart into my spine, it hurt so bad. i wept most of the flight back.
sometimes on really lonely nights, when i miss him the most, i feel the same ache, but he will be coming over here to visit me soon and i have that to look forwards to. Plus we call each other almost everyday and that helps to fight the ache, as well as being grateful that i have a wonderful man that loves me as much as i love him.

i wish the best for you Missy1965 (((hugs)))