(((missy)))
it’s so hard. i've felt those things, too and i know you feel crushed, physically
and spiritually. try and find some outlet for your emotions, it’ll help. friends are good but crafts, books, cooking...whatever...they work too. seven years is a long time , it’s going to be so difficult to overcome.
but beware, when deep depression lasts too long and literally thwarts you from doing the things you need to do like eating and the things would otherwise want to do, like grab a movie...well, then you need help. i'm not talking anything professional, necessarily, but definitely something to help you sort through it if you feel like you’re gonna go under... as soon as it’s got more control than you. i hope that didn’t offend you, i’m not saying your coo-coo
just keep it in mind. clinical depression can happen real fast. one day you’re semi-cool and the next you’re sleeping 22 out of 24 hours. jus’ take care of yourself, is all.
((more hugs))