It's been a topsy turvy day peeps! I had to awaken and not get breakfast for Rocky for the first time in 17 some years! I had no direction, beings I am off from work and had all this free time.

I kept seeing him from the corner of my eye all day. They were some bitter/sweet moments! I imagine I will see him for quite some time. He's really everywhere in this house. There's no room I enter that I don't have a rush of memories. The kitchen and the cellar are the hardest to enter without a heavy sigh and partial breakdown.

Mr. Lixy got home early today and I was so relieved to have his soul fill up the house. It was quite empty in spirit all day till he got home! There's nothing worse than a really old house lacking spirit!

We live on a plot that is rock ridden. We had to dig a hole big enough for Rocky's "coffin". We started digging, and an hour or so later we cleared enough soil and rock to bury my baby. To push the dirt over his coffin was kinda hard to do, yet cathartic all in the same time!

No doubt about it...I am a mess right now! But I know I did the right thing at the right time and I'll get beyond this heavy blanket feeling in time!

The easiest part of all of this is that I have my Pixie family to listen and realize and consider my pain. Don't know how I'd have done this without you all!

*hugs to everyone*

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Minds are like parachutes. They only work when they are open.

~Thomas Dewar~