Packrat, from someone who was in the Marine Corps for 12 years, you need to move on. Begin a new life with someone you can trust.

In my twelve years in, I was married 11 of them. I was in The 1st Gulf War, and out in the field for months at a time before and after the war, and the whole time I was gone from my wife I never once had to worry about her sleeping with someone else. I trusted her deeply and totally.

You my friend cannot trust the women you are with, otherwise you would not get jealous when she is not with you. I have a good idea the feelings you have about your fiance, because I feel the same about my wife, who I have been married to for 20 years this past January. I trust her and don't worry about her when she is not around me.

It is hard to give up on someone you love and feel the things you feel, but marriage is built on trust. No trust, no marriage. You will just become another divorce statisic.

I'm going to tell you like your drill instructor or drill Sergeant told you, "PULL YOUR HEAD OUT OF YOUR ASS AND GET WITH THE PROGRAM BOY!!!"

The military made or makes you jump thru hoops, why should your jump through hoops when you get home for your wife.

Good luck either way you decide. Its your choice with the advice you have asked for.

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