Know exactly what you mean. Although it has only been 19 yrs for me I keep trying. As I said I've had serious thoghts of finding something outside of my marriage. But still think that Because I love her still I don't .But don't know what would happen if the oppertunity arose I couldn't say I may not jump at it. It kind of helps talking with others. Ken

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