Well i'm back, I've tried off and on to post to this since i read it, but tears just kept welling up, so i'm not going to read, just reply as best as i can.

Bilbo hun, do NOT blame yourself for anything, I got to say my goodbyes in another way, that i am forever thankful that you supported me through!! I love you hun!

Thanx to everyone for your hugs, wishes and such, it really was and is appreciated, i'll read through this thread again in time, but at present it just wells up raw emotion that i find a bit hard to cope with at this time.

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