Missy Hon, I know your pain osrt of. I got married to a lovely flight attendant only to recieve a call days after asking if it was too late to annul the marriage. That was 2 years ago and I still think what if. I think the best thing is to occupy your time and try to focus on mental challenges as the pain and anguish dissipates the emotional damage will slowly fade. As for the sex, Darlin I promise there are more exciting and breathtaking voyages out there and from your description of yourself..I'm absolutely certain they will seek you out. My best wishes and deepest regards on your journey Hon... above all else I wish you love ;-)

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