and yet another blow comes my way. We still have the house to sort out so unfortunatly i have to stay in contact with him until its done.

ive changed my mobile number and made sure he doesnt have it, so he can't get to me that way anymore.

the other day when we were discussing what we are doing about the house & all the stuff he told me he hadn't loved me for a while. I asked how long.
"since i realised I couldnt do what i wanted anymore, for example the day we moved intogether, i was meant to be going away for the week on my bike"

his parents kicked him out. i did not ask him to move in with me!!

So to me that says he hasn't loved me for a very long time. I found a birthday card I got earlier this year from him, "to my baby that i love so much", its all lies. It hurts so much to think that he's used me. Which he has. He wanted me to be this wonderful woman, a tiger in bed, his maid thru the day, he wanted me to like camping and bikes, cars and things like that, but that just isnt me. he knew that when he met me.

It occured to me, I was his first time, I was his first kiss, i was his first girlfriend. No one else had noticed him before me. that was confirmed by his friend. maybe when this 15 year old came along he thought @finally, someone else has shown interest, i dont need her anymore'

the sooner we get the house sorted out the better. i have so little free time these days. I work 6am-6pm 5 days a week, when i get home i sleep til about 1pm, which leaves me 5 hours. The weekends arent good for him cause he's with the wonderful 15 year old. *pukes*