It actually turns out I have biological depression... so they've got me on anti-depressants. It's starting to help, but I still get hit by really strong feelings, more often than not the bad ones... I feel really bad because it's putting a strain on all of my relationships with friends, family, coworkers and my best friend. I'm trying to keep it all under control... but it's harder than people think. And it's especially hard for me when people get mad at me over my strong reactions to things... especially when I try so hard not to let things bother me =(

I tried doing the whole masturbation thing but lost interest halfway through... they told me when I first start taking a new dose the meds would affect my sex drive. So hopefully that will come back soon. Last time it came back stronger than ever. So here's hoping it does that again ^^